Okay so sorry its been around 2 months possibly. and there hasnt been a ton going on 

but Today is PROM! so I am doing this instead of getting ready! not so smart!

but um i should really do that though! so I will write all about it probably tomorrow! maybe not but we'll see!

it will be around this week I do write something! 

So of course its been 16 years
and not one soul on this earth has been claimed my Valentine.
but duh so like I should be used to it.
I have some guy friends, but thats all Ive ever been to anyone.
The Friend. I'm losing hope to thats what I'll remain.
Ive been sick of it for awhile.
And why should I change my body for someone?
Why cant they just like me for me?
Im not pencil thick. I never will be. Why should I change me?
I know I will thoough.
It's just all my friends are like in relationships and im like forced to hear about
what going on in them, forced to hang out and be the third wheel again, even though I have
3rd wheel awkwardness under control. I wish it didnt have to be like that. I mean when you
know exactly what to do or what to say when that awkwardness creeps, its well sad. And im an expert.
God, its like I dont know but I dont wanna spend the rest of my life alone. like really.
Even if i did have someone, I dont think i would like Valentines day. I mean why should you celebrate a day of love?
I mean if you love someone, you should love them EVERYDAY! not just February 14th. DUUUUUMB!
whatever. fuck this. Im out.


Im listening to a love-ish song. what an Oxymoron...
pink is also the border line.
Shit im original.

fucka valentines day

still a good song though
check em out, hes goooood :)

but still valentines day is stupid.

k good bye

WHOA its been too long! So American Idol is back on, thats cool I guesssss. I loved Pants on The Ground. ahahahaha. That was so good, and all of america loves it so why not General Larry Platt for American Idol. I dont know why but I never get into that show, Ever. which is weird. I spend most of my time on Pandora Radio & iTunes looking up new music. but the winners of American Idol are feed the masses kind of people. Most of America is into Hip hop/ Rap/ Pop/ Pop-Rock kind of stuff. Which is okay, if you are like a Robot and does what everyone tells you to do. They dont try out to really make music, they try out to get rich and famous. If the American Idol contestants were so into making music they wouldnt neeed American Idol to make it happen. Thats why Im into Indie stuff, They are for the music and not the fame. Its a perk if theyre liked by more people. but I like the ones that were nobodys then somebodys after. People who actually had to work hard. who played clubs and in restraunts. Who opened for a more famous bands concert. bands like that. I was born into a family who only listened to R&b and hiphop. Luckily I was introduced to rock music around 6/7th grade. After that I never really went back to Hiphop. Now Im into Alternative, Rock stuff. More like The Kings Of Leon, Phoenix, Incubus, The Black Keys, The Kooks, the list goes on for days. iTunes store is a love/hate situation for me. I love how new music is constantly introduced there. I hate how its usually nothing I like. I love how They have Genius, which is made just for you. I hate how iTunes Free Single of the week gets worse and worse EVERY week. BUT ANNYWAYS!!!

The semester is over and Im relieved and kinda sad at the same time. New classes, which is always fun for the first like 2 days. then you start to miss your old classes. And the old classes that i dreaded going to are done like Spanish and Chem. Im saddened by leaving my 1st Block. I LOVE LOVE LOVE my 1st block. Everyone in it is super cool. when i saw everyone i mean most people. Its super fun. I learn a lot in there. and its something of interest, which is the best thing. I wanna be a doctor so this class is perfect for me. Cool people + amazing teacher x things ill need for my future= Overall Best class EVER! I am really sad that it wasnt a semester class because its my favorite one. and since its my first class of the say, school doesnt seem so kfjklasdfkjla in the morning. My 2nd Block. HATE IT! easy class but i hate it. Its spanish, which there isnt a day i look forward to the class its still something i have to take to graduate. so funnn. )=/ but i only have like 2 friends in there. Dougie who likes being called DJ, but i refuse to call him that because its common. We used to be so close and now for some reason that i have no idea, we just arent anymore. and then adam whose a freshman who i tell all my creepy little stories too, and still thinks im okay. which is a relief. most of my friends would look at me in shock if i told alot of the same stuff to my friends. So in a way adam is kinda a better friend then my real friendssssss. Surprisingly, hes not gay, well from what i can tell i think. hes just a hella good listener and not judgemental. Anyways I cant tell my weird stories to him as of like thursday or friday. 3rd block: Love/Hate. Love the People. Sometimes I hate the work. Its life-guarding and its really fun sometimes, so many good times and new friends so it sucks that im leaving it, but relieved its over because its totally nerve racking. 4th block. the other class i dread. ITS SO BORING and it has nothing to do with the Medical field. I mean i loved Bio with mr brown of course because it had to deal with life and cells and all that good stuff. but man if there wasn't and good people in it, I WOULD HAVE DIED! I had alot of friends in 4th block so that was always a plus. And its going to sound weird but theres this guy in there. and its hard to describe him. I dont like him like that but hes just really nice to look at. like hes like, i dont know like beautiful. Theres something like about his face that doesn't make him like hot but yeah more like beautiful. And one of my other friends agree so its alright, were on the same page. So in a nut shell Ill miss these classes. I mean there was bad things about them, but when it all comes down to it, i see the positive. Idk Alot of good people and good jokes, ill really miss it, Hopefully next semester will live up to the hype of this one. Ill post a new blog on like monday or whatever with my new classes and my thoughts. and other random shit :)

Oh yeah. Ill try to update about my weekends. so this. starting now.
THIS weekend: I went to 2 movies. The Lovely Bones and Daybreakers

I obviously liked Daybreakers a ton better but Ive been waiting months for it to come out so that could explain it. But both movies were mind blowing and thats kinda all that was up this past weekend. I promise if there was something to cool to write about, ill dooooooo it.